Me and Dan in 1989 Dan in the middle me on the far left fishing August 2015
Between us our brother the Spider to Dan’s right Jim and to his right my lifelong friend David Himmer.
My brother Dan died this week. He had been an important figure in my life all my life. In many ways I was amazed that he lived so well so long. He had been a five star chief and they renownly have issues. After decades of huge successes in that field he decided to become his own boss as a Horticultural Designer or fancy landscaper. He was a hands on kind of guy so even though he was in his seventies he had to get down and work hard beside the crew he employed. After enough years of this his back and body wore out. Last month the doctors told him he could not do physical labor any more. I guess at 71 that and years of self-abuse is what killed him. His love ones, we all hoped he would adjust and find a new way to have meaning in his life and live 5 or 10 more years. But while I was visiting my wife Sofia’s amazing and wonderful family in rural Sweden. I received the word that Dan had just laid down on his couch and died. Now for me there is a hole and a feeling of sad emptiness where was there was an older brother who I had a challenging relationship with but who had unconditionally loved me and who I had loved the same in return all my life. Death is not really a funny thing but I know Dan is more free and out of pain now. I am happy for his next stage of growth but I personally feel my life is off balance and less with-out him and my heart goes out to his wife Suzanne and his daughter Freea and his two lovely grandchildren all who loved Dan so deeply and daily and will have a big hole where a unique personality once was.